Sunday, October 24, 2010

My dearest God,

How do we erase fear in ourselves or another? How do we eradicate that primal emotion that riddles the human psyche?

I remember when I was diagnosed with cancer. Fear swept into me and took up residence. I recall when my daughter was diagnosed with cancer. Fear that had moved on seven years earlier returned with a vengence.

Lord, when I was afraid, I was full of fear. There was seemingly no pocket that was free of the devil. I found myself locking the doors and putting myself on 24 hour alert. Although I could function, there was no time when fear was not ruling me.

Yet, even now you bring to mind the prayers of the fearful, those pleadings when I asked for help. You refreshed my memory by bringing to me images of sweet peace when your grace became bigger than fear, when trust kicked out fear and hope returned. I remember how faith grew and little by little I let go, surrendered those things that kept me from living a calm and peaceful life. I recall the sweetness of joy when you and I walked together facing difficulties with courage and strength. I learned that you were the antidote to fear.

I have
a family member
who is afraid,
dear God.
Impart to her
the deep joy
of trusting you
more deeply.
Wash over her
with the peace
of heaven,
I pray.

Love, Andrea