Thursday, October 7, 2010

Dearest God,

How I long to come under your authority, to be obedient in all things. As I sit looking out the window, I watch with great interest the changing colors of fall. As one leaf after another lets go and falls to the ground, I know the tree is following your design. I want to become like them.

For years you called me to surrender. Surrendering meant letting go of my preconceived ideas, my desires, my wants and my ways of doing things. In order to find a truer me, I had to give myself to your command. As I indeed loosened my grip, I came to discover there is something, someone more wonderful and deeper than myself. I became more aware of your workings in the world, in creation, in me. And you disclosed how it is sweeter to follow you than give in to my wanton yearnings.

You have revealed truths that teach. I know the tree releases its leaves because springtime will bring new buds and blossoms. A tree that would hold on to the old will soon wither and die. So it is true with me. If I hang on to yesterday or last week or to anything that requires conversion, I will never enter the springtimes you have designed for me, for all of us. True obedience is allowing the process to occur naturally and to trust you.

Make me clay
in your hands,
dear One;
show me
once again
the joy
of being shaped
by your hands.
Let your
sweet spirit
breathe a
humble obedience
in me.
Teach me
your way,
I pray.

Love, Andrea