Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Dearest God,

Will I ever learn?  Will I ever learn to pay attention, to care for what is yours and to do your will?  I think I may be hopeless.

All day today I did the same thing...cut roots.  From 7:30 to nearly 4:00 I cut roots.  By the time I walked up to the house, shrugged off my filthy work clothes and took my shower my shoulder hurt so bad.  Seven hours of doing the same thing killed my fragile, arthritic shoulder.  But then I knew that would be the case.  I so wanted to get as many flowers planted as I could.  Well, my friend and I did; however, I paid the price of overuse.

Why am I so dumb, so resistant and so stubborn?  Why do I do what I know will hurt me?  Am I a lost cause, O Lord?

Heavenly Father,
you know me
like no one else.
You know
my deep faults.
You know me
because you
made me.
Help change me,
Father, please.

Love, Andrea