Saturday, March 28, 2020

Dearest God,

Yesterday was an especially difficult day.  I woke up, bleached down the kitchen, washed clothes, cut out more fabric for face masks for health care workers and I was exhausted.  I was angry, sad and depleted.  I learned that one of my favorite couples at my last church have the corona virus.  John is close to 90 and Jean is not far behind.  He is hospitalized and she is being tested at home.  So close to home and heart.

I recognized I needed to dwell with you all day.  I needed to surrender my fears, anxieties, frustrations, worries and hurts.  I had to let go, release everything that was troubling me.  I knew only you would take all I had to offer.  Only you could fill me back up.  I knew I had to drink from your well of living water and eat from your table of spiritual food.  Only then could I return to my sewing, my praying for others and my willingness to reach out.

All day long I felt your presence leading me home.

Only you
can heal.
Only you
can give hope.
Only you
can erase
all that
troubles us.
Only you
can fill us up
with mercy.
Only you.

Love always, Andrea