Tuesday, March 30, 2021

Dear God,

I struggled in the night.  I was angry and gave in to my lesser thoughts.  When I realized what I was doing, I whispered to God, "O God, I do not want to be less than I am.  I want to have a Jesus mind.  I want to have a Jesus heart.  I want to have a Jesus love."  I confessed that my ways were not your ways.  I felt ashamed, sad and disappointed in myself.  Within seconds a scripture verse came to me, "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think on these things."  (Philippians 4:8)

Think on these things, you said, think on these things.  You challenged me to change my thoughts, to let my mind and spirit be transformed by what is good.  My thoughts and words shifted as I moved toward you, my savior and rescuer.

This is what you do, O God, this is what you do.  You speak to your children.  After you listen to our concerns, our pouting and complaining, you give us opportunity to change, to cling to you, to let it all out, to cry or yell and then to find comfort, guidance and mercy.  I am grateful, so very, very grateful.

Blessed are you,

God who loves us all.

Thank you

for the lesson

the dark night

of my soul

taught me.

Guide me always

back to you,

I pray.

Love, Andrea