Sunday, April 15, 2012

My dearest God,

When I feel the full joy of life around me, thinking how good life is, sometimes something will happen to remind me that life is indeed good, however fragile it may be.  When I think everything is under control, I stop to pause remembering how life can turn on a dime in an instant.

As I was just about to process in with the church choir as our worship began, I started feeling a little warm.  I felt a weakness in my muscles, my breathing a teeny bit labored, my eyes beginning to droop a little.  My voice became a little coarse and gravelly.  I wanted to sing but knew I would have to leave immediately after our anthem to tend to my body that was beginning to fail me, all signs of an endocrine system gone haywire, again.

I came home, climbed into bed, and fell fast asleep.  During the day I realized once again how fast all things can change.  My strength can turn to weakness very quickly.  My energy and power can give way to quiet rest.  My ability to go about my day as planned fails as I lay my body down to do the only thing I can do.

Even as I write weary and worn, I am confident in my knowledge of your living presence that rests with me, recalling to mind that I am your own.  I am never alone.  My trust in you grows as I lean upon you.  You have taught me no matter what comes my way, you are still God and I am your child.  Faith teaches me to learn from you, to trust in your unending care, and know that love holds me and always will.

Heavenly Father,
Good God,
I do
trust in you.
Moments of uncertainty
always speak
to me
of the certainty
of your
tender love.
Whether I
am living
or dying,
you are
the one
who remains
with me always.
How grateful
I am
to be
so blessed
by you.

Love, Andrea