Friday, March 21, 2014

Dear God,

I am harboring a resentment.  There I said it.  Out of the blue the face will visit my memory and I feel anger. While there is good cause for my feelings, I know there is no benefit to holding on to resentment.

A heart filled with resentment has less room for love and mercy.  It hardens over time making the soul a less pliable vessel.  It can destroy.

So why carry resentment?  Because the pain is deep; it resurfaces from time to time when something triggers a memory.  The hurt that comes with it reminds me of the deed that not only pained me but also someone I love very much.  Their loss and my own was huge.  It was not a small thing.

As I think of you and your ways, I realize you know this kind of injustice and I know you understand.  At the same time you do not want any obstacle that keeps us from a good life.  Resentment will reside in the place I call joy if I do not release the resentment and move forward.

Be the power
in my life,
dear God;
rid me
of this darkness
in my soul,
I pray.

Love, Andrea