Saturday, October 14, 2023

Dear God,

Sometimes in the middle of the night we battle between good and evil.  Dark thoughts come to our mind.  Old hurts are ripped open.  Judgement and conflict follow.  Although we know the difference between good and evil, still we hurt and get angry.

Last night was one such night.  Images of sorrow and injustice filled my mind.  My heart sped up and my emotions nearly got the best of me.  If it had not been for you, I would have given in to my darkest thoughts.  But you came to me calling me by name.  

I remembered a situation a few weeks ago when you gave me words of help, support and love.  Your words in my mouth came out:  "I love you more than I want to engage in angry judgement."  Again, your words filled my mouth but more than these.  You said, "I love you more than your love for me."  I was comforted as I repeated your words over and over again.  Eventually I was able to sleep.

What I know is this:  You are with us every moment.  You hear our pleas and our desire for change.  You want to assist us in our battles and in our emotions.  You want to remind us of your living love.  You want to heal us.

Thank you,

Merciful God,

for remembering us.

Thank you

for coming close.

Thank you

for words

that help

and heal.

Thank you

for love

that brings good

out of evil.

Yours forever, Andrea